what do you do
when something you were just getting used to
is snatched away,
before you have time to blink,
to breathe, to let your heart beat?
I was just coming around
to hitting my head on your robust chest
everytime you engulfed me in your arms
and I was just finding out
how to fit
my tiny hands in the vastness of yours.
I was only beginning to memorise
the curves and crevices of your
imperfectly perfect face and
I was only starting to love the way
your soft, brown hair
felt between my fingers.
I was just getting used to
having your arms to fall into
and your soft lips to kiss
and I was only learning how and
when your pieces fit
into my puzzle.
I was only realising how wonderful it is
to have someone look at me the way
you did and
I was just trying to understand
how it was possible for one person
to light up my world the way you did.
we live and we learn,
we hurt and we grow
we laugh and we love,
and even after everything,
we are never, never ready
to let go.
so now I'm walking around
without direction, a direction I had - before you,
but no one taught me to find that direction
without you.
and I'm fighting my judgement,
because while a part of me knows that life
is just a series of trials and errors,
another part wants none of the errors,
the other part only wants
a few more moments with you.
~Ushashi
